- Hannah Brown’s book details her time on “The Bachelor” and the competition for Colton Underwood’s heart.
- She wrote thatThey kept feeling like something was off when they were together.
- Underwood came out as gay in April 2021, two years after he received the nickname “The Bachelor”.
The audience got to know Hannah “Hannah Best” Brown as she stepped out of the limo on the first night of Colton Underwood’s season of “The Bachelor” in January 2019. In her new book, God Bless This Mess, she writes about what happened. He would have liked to date him – specifically, how it was until now with someone who later turned out to be gay.
“I kept feeling like something was off,” Brown wrote. “Feeling like he didn’t even want to kiss me, you know? Some of the other girls felt like something was off, and I honestly didn’t know what to think.”
Brown wrote that they had a conversation until she told him “live” she had doubts.
She told him, “I feel like I’m on this cliff. And with all the drama that’s been going on, I feel like I want to step back off the ledge. Either that or I just want to jump in, and really let myself start giving you my heart.”
His response was that he had already jumped, and asked her to “jump with me”.
However, Brown was eventually sent home after meeting Underwood’s parents as part of a one-on-one date.
“As soon as I got in the car to go on that date, I felt in my heart that something was wrong,” she wrote. “It’s as if we weren’t connecting the way we were supposed to,” she continued.
Underwood chose Cassie Randolph – and he’s known to have jumped for her – and the two dated for nearly a year and a half, and announced their separation in May 2020. Randolph later obtained a restraining order against him, alleging that he spied on her. It was dropped in November 2020.
More than two years after receiving the “Bachelor” star in April 2021, Underwood came out as gay in an interview on Good Morning America.
“I ran away from myself for a long time,” he said in the interview. “I hated myself for a long time. I dealt with that earlier this year and fixed it, and the next step in all of this was kind of letting people know.”
He also apologized to the contestants for his series, saying, “Do I regret dealing with The Bachelor? Do I regret dealing with her the way I did? I do. I think I could have handled her better. I wish I didn’t. It dragged people into a mess of figuring out who I am.” “.
Of the revelation, Brown wrote in her book, “Two years later, when I saw Colton gay on Good Morning America, I saw the same freedom for him—and it made me happy.”
“It also helped me better understand why things fell apart between us – because he felt good about himself. He wasn’t living the truth,” she added.
Underwood will appear in a six-episode documentary series, “Coming Out Colton,” which begins December 3 on the day