Black Ferns hooker Te Kura Ngata-Aerengamate opens up on ‘mental breakdown’ on tour

A senior New Zealand rugby official called Black Ferns prostitute Te Korra Ngata-Iringamat’s decision to publicize her mental health crisis “sad” and vowed that the organization would support the player in every way possible.

Ngata-Aerengamate has opened up about the mental health crisis that she says came on top of the team’s recent North Tour.

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Rugby General Manager Chris Lindrum, Rugby General Manager and Performance Director, addressed the media Tuesday morning regarding the allegations that appear to have been directed at Black Ferns coach Glenn Moore.

“My first reaction is that it’s really sad to read, you never like to see anyone describe their situation the way Te Cora did,” Lindrum said.

Lendrum confirmed that he was in contact with Ngata-Aerengamate and Moore on Tuesday morning.

“Our number one priority is making sure the TK is okay,” Lindrum said. “I sent her a message this morning explaining that we support and care for her, and that we are here and ready to speak up when she is.”

“And I know a number of other people in and around Black Ferns talking to her and doing the same thing.

“We obviously take any issues raised like this very seriously. We are really proud of our national team environments. Really proud of our Black Fern team and in their case we have a review going on in 2021 and the North Tour.

“This matter will be carefully considered as part of that review. We will start from there.”

Ngata-Aerengamate started two Tests and came off the bench once on his European tour that ended with four consecutive defeats to England and France last month.

This was the first time the black fern had lost four tests in a row.

Ngata-Aerengamate won the 2017 Rugby World Cup and has conducted 32 Tests since making its Black Ferns debut in 2014.

The 30-year-old outlined her struggles in an Instagram post on Monday night.

Filmed in a Test against Australia in 2019, Te Kura Ngata-Aerengamate played 32 Tests for the Black Ferns.

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Filmed in a Test against Australia in 2019, Te Kura Ngata-Aerengamate played 32 Tests for the Black Ferns.

I wrote “Behind the Smile”.

“Tour in a week and the emotions are real. Should I speak up or should I keep quiet on my mind a thousand times. I would never have thought I would get mentally ill in a sport I love so much.

“I didn’t play the way I wanted to do on this tour. And the way I’ve played the last few years hasn’t been my best.

“Over the past eight years that I’ve been at the Black Ferns, I struggled mentally and finally quit everything for the last round.

“Yeah, I had a mental breakdown in front of everyone.”

Ngata-Aerengamate said that various comments were made to her during her time at the tour party.

“I was selected but I did not deserve to be on the team…

“I was told what would my students think of me? [She works as a school teacher.]

“I swore to wear my jacket around my hips, I yelled when I ran to the run, How I ran the ball, anything I did I felt I was doing wrong

“A recent comment that I was only chosen to play guitar.”

Ngata-Aerengamate said her confidence was so low that she found it difficult to play.

“From these comments I ended up going crazy. I had to give anger management advice, I discovered anxiety and hyperventilation for the first time in my life, and I could hear these comments in my mind when I threw the ball.”

“My confidence and self-esteem were so low that I played as if I were walking on eggshells and was always too afraid to express myself. I called self-doubt and insecurity. Some are unbearable when I look at myself in the mirror.

“The truth is that I was defeated and it was so dark that I could no longer see why I lost. I forgot about the 5-year-old who started playing rugby with her cousins ​​25 years ago.

“I let the words over the years reach me, the words became of the body.

“The lesson is, don’t let anyone dim your light. Be proud of who you are. If you are treated unfairly, hit them without apology because at the end of the day your mana is at stake.

“I know I am not everyone’s cup of tea, but I am still a person and at least deserve to be treated with respect.

“Now I’m on a journey of healing. Get up. Speak. Know your worth.”

Ngata-Aerengamate has received supportive comments from fellow Black Ferns, including Chelsea Alley, Dhys Faleafaga, Carla Hohepa, and Ayesha Leti-Iiga, as well as All Blacks Ardie Savea and TJ Perenara, and seven-stars Robbie Toei and Tila Nathan Wong, placing Olympic shot icon Ms. Valerie Adams.

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The Ngata-Aerengamate, to whom the Ngāti Porou tribe belonged, often led the Hakka Black Ferns.

She is fluent in te reo Māori and is a school teacher at Kaitaia College in Northland, with whom she plays in the Farrah Palmer Cup.

In her first Women’s Super Rugby match in May, she started with the Blues against the Chiefs.

I changed codes to play in the Cook Islands at the Rugby League World Cup 2017 in Australia.

The Black Fern Department has been contacted for comment.

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